It is easy to wallow in the negative emotions.  There are many.  It happens often.  But, in peeling back the layers, there are many blessings as well.  We've been on a journey of self-discovery.  One that has reshaped our family's priorities.  One that has bonded us through grief.  Finding and embracing the blessings have pulled us through the firestorm of the first two years post-diagnosis.